Tuesday, December 21, 2010

The Man Who Fails To Plan, Plans 2 Fail

Lord I have been taught this principal as a child in order to succeed in life. Here I am currently with out a plan, a dream, or a manmade roadmap. Does this thought contradict itself, can a true seer of Christ’s plan out his/her entire life, their future?? I use to have a goal of making it big in 2008 I would move into that new house I built, make $75k, have cash saved up, travel abroad, have mate, & riding down easy street. Well since none of this has happened, I guess mans plan didn’t work out so grand for me this year.

Lately I look at my lack of motivation, lack of planning (except the fun in the sun type trips) & my lists of goals being very small in number. So I ask you Lord, to take the wheel & I’ll jumping into the backseat. I need to be revealed my direction for the remaining year of 2008 & what I’m supposed to accomplish in 2009.

Who do you want me meet?? Where am I supposed to donate my time?? When am I supposed to be fulfilled day in day out with the continuous flow of the Spirit? How do I prepare my offerings to your satisfaction? Who do I run with in the coming year that would prepare me to serve Christ’s the way I was destined to do? Where should I wait for my horse and buggy to carry me to my ordained city, state, countryside, or nation in order for the Glory of the Lord to be spread? How do I find my next designation railroad station?

Whom should I partner with in life to fulfill the teachings of the Master? What steps do I need to make you happy El Shaddai? I fear not the bumps in the road or the many curves throughout my journey since my plan and direction is the Lords. Who said that I couldn’t end up like a John Lake and travel to Africa, Asia, or the South American regions with only instincts & complete faith that my God would provide & protect my boat from the mighty winds and storms? Why do I need goals of a man that represent earthly success? Especially when my goals are not of this world but of Heavens!!

If man said only the foolish travel without plans does that make me crazy if my plan is only to follow Jesus. Should I really have faith in a map system in which manly hands made when my gifts, goals, plans, & direction doesn’t welcome anything that’s not from the throne room? AM I ready God?? Have I crucified my flesh in its entirety to hear your voice like a megaphone? Is there enough of your scriptures in my spirit to actually make a difference? Can my physical eyes become blinded so that my GPS is Gods Power Saves through my testimony & faithfulness to all things that are Pure & Holy?

Has my journey even begun or am I waiting for my time year after year for my turn to shine? Have I been a wondering ship lost on the open seas of life? As I look over the decks back towards the direction of my past life despite all my travels, have I really gone anywhere worthwhile? How do I shipwreck upon the rock of my salvation without direction from the H.S. Teach & train me oh great teacher to make room for a new captain in life.

Help plan, organize, dream, set goals, & accomplish everything I am destined so that I may conquer the enemy. I need to know which path to take: the one less traveled or option B the American rat race. I want to be certain I’m pleasing to your sight & my actions are a delight to your son’s ears. Show me the way Lord. I’m yours so do as you please & take me where I’m suppose to see God’s plan of action for more than just my life.

Master Composer

Teach me Lord the focus and concentration of a master music composer. How I long for their discipline in waiting for their key (your voice) waiting, waiting, then reaching to your act, and not theirs. Only adding to the mix of the group, what is best for everyone, not just themselves. Never rudely out perform their counter partners, but adding a delightful melody. A sound that is not only pleasant to the ears, but one that is on the frequency that you have destined. Never bouncing around like a yo-yo only striving for divine intervention.

Talk your Talk

Gossip me this
Gossip me that
It sounds like too much gossip for just one mouth

Truthful lips endures forever
But a lying tongue lasts only a minute
So then, the prudent keeps their mouth shut
Overlooking insults

Just as charcoal to embers & as wood to fire
So without wood fire goes out
Without gossip a quarrel dies down

Since a trustworthy person keeps a secret
Don’t betray a brother, stay true to your friend

The Power of Music & Prayer

Pray this, we pray that, we pray earlier in the break of dawn, & we pray late into the night for the break thrus to break on through. We pray till the bondage is broken, until the chains of sin in which has held us for hostage for so long don’t have dominion over us, the body of Christ. Glory to Jesus the lamb that was saved, joy to the Nations, let Jesus reign on the throne room. For your word states clearly the wolf & the lamb will worship to find refuge together. This is only possible thru the power of the cross, Revelation from Heaven, & Prophesy falling upon Gods 4-5 star generals to pass to the generations.

Music provides a beat to pray & allows us to tap into Gods heartbeat. Music & prayer energizes Heaven, it fulfills the earth, & magnifies people to seek Gods face. It’s a portal to feel Gods graced, mercy, Revelation of the past, present, & future. One cannot deny oneself when they participate in wholehearted worship & prayer. Music & prayer changes the atmosphere, it prepares the way. Preparing the way for angelic appearances, prepares for visions & dreams, & prepares the way for a clearer mind to feel & hear Him. For Gods work to be done as well as transform the person, church, group, organization.

It’s powerful, it’s contagious, it’s Holy& pure, it’s satisfies the soul. It soothes the mind, body, & heart to continue forward for God’s destiny & purpose. It washes us in the blood of the lamb, just like a blood transfusion. It’s the constant fire on the alter; the Lord clearly speaks of in His word. It rewires the watchmen/watchwomen on the wall to have the passion to continuing interceding for the strangers in the hall. It humbles us all, which helps bring us closer to the throne room. It prepares us for the day, tomorrow, & a lifetime of Holy pursuit. Don’t take my word, just try it and see.

Vibes from the Holy Vine

Just as vibe feels vibe so does the Holy Spirit stirs us all up when the same agenda is being searched out. The flow always senses others flow in tongues as well as prayer language. The same scenario applies for the sit downers, look-oners, stand Byers, which take comfort with each other’s long glances into nothing. Can one truly feel satisfied unless that individual has a close walk with the Lord? Can one truly move on in life when starring at someone who they possibly love & feel that maybe so maybe not vibe. Getting close to someone of the opposite sex is challenging when your face is on the Lords face. A face that w/out a doubt that’s shining on both of you starts sparking when looking at each other’s way. His light exits one body and smiles backwards towards the others body. Is this solitude lifestyle too cautious Lord or is it really just wanting the perfect will of Jesus & following Him w/out distractions? Just as the Lord has said to all repeatedly I have always been here and I am here with you now. It sometimes feels I have always been waiting for my opposite attraction.

What does it mean God when I act awkward around her/him, often times saving stupid things while jumping to wrong conclusions & those unnatural statements. Why am I so comfortable around all other girls/guys except this one chosen by God? It must be the worldly environments & the alcohol right. I could read and write till I’m blue in the face just to be by your side God & of course to catch a glimpse from her/his direction. I’m not the man she/he prays for this night but what about tomorrow, next week/month, or the long, long, long next year. Oh how my heart breaks as I exhale considering that might be true yet gently exhaling once more, knowing all 3 of us are here together for at least now. So as the song plays on let the river flow, let the H.S. come, let the river flow. Let the H.S. chills engulf my body & remind me of the ol so truths of mans knowledge. The truth still remains all we need in life God is you, so, so simple.

Amazing simply amazing the human will tests the flesh just as the mind seeks the Spirit for what really is right, wrong, 1 dimensional, or 3. Who can tell me, who will really know the truth, know the time, know the place, know the others heart beat, know when I could be trusted, know when is my time, know when does my-her/his destinies take place. Is it possible for one another to sense & feel the others soul, mind, heart, & passions. If so then how about their addictions, diseases, strongholds, & pains w/out even discussing them w/ each other? Only Yahweh really knows the truth & feels this vibe for the time being.

So Why Don’t You, Please Do It

So Why Don’t You, Please Do It

So why don’t you please don’t make me smoke alone. John please just smoke a little with me? Look I’m not looking for anything serious or long term rather just a little fun tonight. I know you love to fool around I can the see the spark in your eyes. It’s not a big deal if we have sex tonight as the song goes” And tomorrow go back to being friends.”

Hey man everybody wants to go out tonight, you know catch up on old times throw down like 1999, 2009, wine and dine, it’s the usual that’s on the menu tonight. “Come on you never go out anymore always dissing all your friends acting like your way better than us or something. One night hurt anything; stop getting your panties in a wad.

So as I walk the down town streets the shadow of death I fear no evil for even thou I’ve screwed up you will comfort me as you lead me down to cleaner refreshing waters I drink the cup of life, whatever shoot or cocktail you want to buy me. I use to think the idea of God was cool and liked the benefit package of going to Heaven but never cared for Jesus too much. I’m not rally sure why just didn’t. He never did anything to me or ever mistreated me. I simply didn’t think or talk about Him. I wanted the free pass to Heaven when I died (like everyone else in the world) However I never wanted to abide by all those rules acting and doing all the things like the churchy God bless you attitude people. No I wanted to do what I wanted, where I wanted, when I wanted, where I wanted and depending on how I felt & even how late into the night get into something more.

See when I started looking growing into manhood I started looking around & discovering the fun times bring pains, pissing all that money away wasn’t exactly fun anymore. Fights, diseases, car wrecks, prejudice arose, and the Billy Bad @$$ syndrome occurred inside my head & heart. As I turned towards God in a last effort to somehow get right & help my mother sleep a little easier @ night God welcomed my twisted, wild eyed, all- nighter, broken mess into His arms.

I was welcomed without a whip or a belt for all my sins but with love. God's ordained perfected timing of people & even places taking me in under their wings, exposing me to a new side of life. Lifestyles that where Holy in action mixed with a burning passion to change my hellion ways. Even afterwards I still continued to slip back and forth tossing and turning with my Angels and my Devils, God still took care of me like a loving Father. He started revealing Himself to me as I continued to draw near. It was mindblowing ways that I have only heard about from my mother. Telling me things called Revelations during hours of prayer sessions and now they where started occuring to me.

Gifting and talents started to arise inside of me things I didn’t even know I had or could do. He started showing me things regarding my future, other people’s future, & often times sharing with me what was on His heart at that moment in time. As I started recognizing this relationship forming He patiently waited on me to die to self, stop fighting,”the mentality of living for years on both sides of the fence” and just give into His plan. As I con’t to put my hand out and reach toward Him, He was doing the same stretching His hand out to grab mine. Once this new relationship blossomed into a true friendship, He wanted to open my eyes, heart, and even my feelings toward His only son, Jesus.

One can’t truly love God without loving Jesus and someone can’t live like she/he wants and without finally turning away from the old Habitual habits. It’s not right to love a father and mother and not son or even daughter especially when you begin to spend significant time with that someone. It almost becomes natural with long durations of time to start treating everyone equally in the family. So then why didn’t I want to wasted all the time like I use to? The answer as complicated as it is simply because God loved me for who I was not who I could be or should be acting.

So why don’t you want to cuss every 6 or 7 words and continue telling dirty jokes well because it’s offensive to Jesus, it hurts His reputation/His feelings?

So why don’t I want to continue having sex & doing what I want to do all the time, well because it’s bad for me, my heart, soul, mind, and body just as God has often times warned all us about in His Word?

So why don’t I want to go out with old party friends because I’m weak with temptation & I just might do all the things mentioned earlier plus some!!

So why do when I slip messing up I run back to my favorite Christian preacher or favorite Harp and Bowl music well simply because I’m striving to achieve greatness for the name who saved my soul from eternal damnation, broken weak self esteem, screwed up financial wreak, and even potential marriage problems due to my own abusive actions and mentalities.

I stay secluded writing, reading, listening, studying, and praying for a better way more abundant part II of the John Wesley Brooks story. I build & continuing building a foundation with the expectations that once I come out of the gate it’s on & I’m bringing as many people as I can into the winners circle.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

I’m not worried about it… So why are you?

So they judge not with Spiritual eyes from the heart but what the ears & earthly eyes see? They tell me how can you allow those teenagers and young adults to cuss in church?

Well I just thankful they didn’t sleep in today and actually came to church! They take a look at your inner circle with doubts of why your boys are walking in late? I’m really thankful they now carry Bibles armed with pens & ready blank pages to soon be filled with wisdom & love from above.

They say persecute those wild-eyed boys they reek of weed and stale alcohol left over from the night before. Well I’m genuinely thankful they are starting to learn better decision-making skillz. Not only that but they now have someone to confine in during confusing times and when tough choices arise.

They say once someone becomes saved then your made whole as a new creature and so old habits are washed away. Well I’m thankful their laundry lists of addictions are shrinking Sunday after Sunday with the grace of Jesus! The say the parents musta lost control so why do you also tolerate the crew to serve two masters? Well I’m just thankful through all the darkness & smoked filled rooms they have now started the journey of finding the light. Even if it’s not a smoothly paved interstate they are beginning to find the road to righteousness. So I say with every bump and pothole along the way the Revelation they are receiving mixed with the prayers from above are revealing to their 3rd eye a life that’s worth living.

SO they say, why don’t you warn them about going to concerts, bars, and sunny side up parties is really on the wild and extreme side of hourglass? Well I’m just thankful I’m learning everyday from the father above how to become a leader, a disciple, a brother, and a friend with out having the hypocrites mentality of, ”Do as I say not as I do or did.” They say how can you have such double standards? Where are your ethics, morals & your Christian behavior handbook? Well I’m just thankful one step was taken forward even after or sometimes before the 2 steps backwards occurred.

They say bend them boys over a knee with the Bible in hand, better yet beat them over the head with the bible. As they smile looking at their perfect youth group. All perfect angels and Leave it to Beaver teenage behaviors! Well I’m just thankful not to be a fly on the wall in your perfect youth group. Especially since creeping in with signs of sexual activity, weaknesses or porno, and smells of good times around every corner.

They ask aren’t you rooted and grounded in the principles of the Word of God? Well of course I’m just thankful the seeds have been planted in all their lives so that one day when trouble tries to creep in like the black plague, they might actually read one of those principles found in the B-I-B-L-E. They say enough just their butts in the military or better yet look em up in jail. I know all of them are riding dirty!!!!

Well I’m just thankful when the crowd wanted to stone the prostitute Jesus came to the rescue with the most profound and powerful statement. All you without sin, please, pretty please, with all your ideal ways of how to change a person,” cast the first stone.” So I say my boys and their crew might be rolling stones tonight but Sunday morning they will learn about the one who rose from the grave by the Angel from a high. The one who rolled away that final stone of captivity? SO then I am not worried so why are you?

Swift Like A Ninja

Teach me to be swift like a ninja

Crafty like a carpenter, and the agility of an athlete

Precision of an engineer

Patience of pastors

The love of a schoolteacher

The negotiation skills of a salesman

The leadership qualities of the President

The wisdom of A Prophet

The accuracy of a scientist

Time management of a business entrepreneur,

The service of a hotel concierge

The mind of an astronaut

The backbone of a farmer

The nutritional value of a health nut

The joys of feeding others like a five star chef

Powerful like a body builder and well trained like a U.S. Special Forces agent

Communicate like a film director

Achieve greatness like a Nobel peace prizewinner

Defend the week and innocent like an Attorney

To imprint your designs like a screen printer,

To heal the sick like a doctor

To find your presence like a hunter

I will push through the day and night for your will to be done like a midnight trucker

To analyze literature like a philosopher

Regurgitate your Word like a writer

To sing and play steadfast likes a classic/modern day composer for you

Lord please make the proper adjustments like a chiropractor

To iron out faults and clean up messes like a mother maiden

Learning to love unconditionally like your Lord.

I praise you for the abundance of talent in your people

I pray I possess skills in all these mentioned and other not yet foreseen.

I pray the brilliance of these skilled professions become Supernatural

Poured into my spirit filling my cup over and over and over again.

So I ask

So I Ask...

So I ask let me walk into situations w/out preparation.
So I ask hand me the file right before I enter the roundtable discuss.
So I ask book my flight & when I arrive I will be able to deliver the right message.
So I ask put me in the rotation, adding me to the schedule & watch me perform.
So I ask if I’m busy make the arrangements & I won’t let you down.
So I ask of nothing in return for all the goodness I show.
So I ask to be 1st yet accepting finishing last b/c I helped a friend find the way.
So I ask judge not my actions or fault rather the purity of my heat.
So I ask after self-evaluation who am I & where exactly have I been taking myself lately?
So I ask will I ever become the man my father & mother hope & expect?
So I ask will I ever become the husband that remains best friends with my wife?
So I ask will I train up a child in the way they should not departing from righteousness?
So I ask what it takes for my parents to become answered?
So I ask what exactly am I willing to sacrifice for the greater good of mankind?
So I ask will I have to stand alone in times of needs and trouble?
So I ask if I vanish for a year or even two would my absence become remotely noticed?
So I ask if I had to do it all over again would I turn out the same person you use to know?
So I ask if I did exchange old ways for what they say is a better day would I be heretoday
So I ask what is the value of a soul truly worth on the black market?
So I ask if I discovered the fountain of youth would I sell it or simply give it away?
So I ask is not my house right with God?
So I ask has He not made an everlasting covenant with me arranging every piece & part?
So I ask will He not bring to fruition my salvation & grant me every promise and desire?
So I ask give me the Nations as your inheritance?
So I ask please answer me when I call out?
So I ask give me relief from my distress.
So I ask please be merciful to me and hear my prayers.
So I ask since I have already ask don’t you think the Lord will answer when I call?
So I ask how much do you really expect from me, b/c somewhere deep down inside I feel I can somehow give so much more, so much mo.

What has more Temptation? The Eyes, the Mind, or the Ears…

The eye is never satisfied and the traveling ears never seems to hear exactly what it wants Once the cloudy polluted mind finally opens up it causes my ears to explode hearing nothing but your goodness. Since my eyes have finally seen the truth, I can fly like I use to fly. My soul can once again fly with freedom from my eyes escaping my minds hearing those forgotten lines.

A wise man once there is only one set of eyes that truly watches over the ways of the righteousness. City after city, town after town my mind races over and over those dirty streets. What will I see next? My ears are in serious need of a rhythm that can capture all three into another time and space. How can the eyes forget what it’s seen? How can old forgotten memories remain buried when my ears have heard the sounds of my destiny bell ringing?

The good news says,” offer your body as a living sacrifice” for all the music lovers in the house, this is your spiritual act of worship. It’s your own way of breaking it down, style of dance, and singing. So express out loud without becoming conforming to the pattern of this world but become transformed by the renewing of your mind.

The habits of the familiarity steps led to a tortured soul once you have seen and heard the real deal Christ-Holderfield. All 3 become one in His presence, all 3 are ole so slightly adjusted becoming more welcoming to the Trinity to come close. Because Heaven just spoke with all His Glory, God poured all over the intercessor, the God chaser, the seer, and the seeker. Temptation it’s @ every corner looming on the city streets during the midnight hours. Good advise might say turn the wrong eye blindly to her ways and you know what I’m talking about those seductive waves of dancing moves. The mind of Christ probably would instruct the crooked mindset to simply be still and listen for a new state of mind. The ears most likely would say watch out for Peter when he has a sword in his hand. Listen to the small voice and sounds during the worship. For there will be a day when the 3 are 1.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010


Don’t move because of political partnerships, they rarely fly by the seat of their pants, or even worry with silly thoughts of if people like them or not.

Eyes are always upon a leader, watching, waiting for their next move and how the leader will handle that particular situation. This is why stewardship & disciplining is so important in shaping the lives other potential leaders. In other words putting what you know into practice for the benefit of the next generation. It’s critical to pass, "the Father Mantle" onto others so in turn, they too will be encouraged to pass the baton.

If you give God your identity in return God’s saying He will give His identity. It’s an ancient practice that is simply giving back to God what was His in the first place.

He’s the one who turns the nobody’s into somebody, so that the nobody’s and the somebody’s start watching you Then we all start to see and understand what it takes to become a true leader.

The only true way to act right is simply standing in righteousness. Standing right in the midst of wrong isn’t always easy. However it’s what successful leaders are called to do, making the tough choices when nobody’s looking. The right place at the right time can become critical to one’s survival in the days to come.

God never intended for us to act like robots or even Martians rather he created us to maintain our own abilities. The characteristics a proven leader: learn, train, and becoming pruned by removing the thorns & reveling the beautiful rose of Sharon.

Gardens don’t spring up in a day and Leaders aren’t born over night!!!

Think of this, the true description of being a son or daughter of the Lord of host is realizing you are the next kin-illionaire a person of royalty, nobility, a higher standard in statue and all your characteristics that you possess will be used to grow into the Leaders you are all destined to become...

Take Control

Take Control

Don’t get too busy & let it all pass by. Don’t let it pass you by.

Just another face in another place.

Look around, look around, looking all around

It’s easier to blend into the crowd than make a stand.

Who will make a stand? Who will take a stand?

Don’t let the music take control

Never allowing the music to take control

Even when it wants to take your soul

Let God take control

Take my soul, take my soul

It’s my soul, my soul, my soul

My life’s always under His control

Who will make a stand? Who will take the stand?

Don’t let the music take control

Never allowing the music to take control

Even when it wants to take control

Let Him take control

Take my soul, my soul, it’s my soul

Built Christ Tough

It takes time, Time, Time, Time aftertime when you are building a house. Do you go to the builder without a foundation and say I’m ready to move in quickly? Can you skip some steps in the process, rushing the procedures up so I can sit back relaxing while chilling in my new whirlpool hot tub? If you want your house to last, if you want your house to with stand against hurricane winds, tornadoes, hail, & storms? The wise man once said build the house step by step piece by piece, never hurrying never rushing, never skipping the order of importance. For when we rush perfection & force things on our own sets up for a perfect formula for having problems, issues, structural foundation cracks.

Reminds me of the parable how the wise man built his house upon the rock, the foolish man builds his house upon the sand. Times of darkness and uncertainties are when the leaders of tomorrow are being forged!!!

Walls to Ashes

Walls to Ashes

The airwaves are cloudy when I close my eyes all I see is a blockade. Where O Where are the worshipping warriors, why are they scattered across the land? The Spirit mourns for more and more worship & praise that tears down these walls of Religion. Old traditions die when new ways are birthed. Why do the dj’s, rappers, & space explorers remain silent when the sounds in the soul are ready for an explosion?

Lifting up our spirits into the unforeseen dimensions is not such a thing alive in the modern day structure of the church, or is it? The earth rumbles & the Angels cries Holy, Holy are the one’s who are coming forth with the sounds of deliverance. This sound of deliverance as the older folks once said will set the captives free. These computer generated beats will birth for a group of young people who will bring forth freedom to the Nations. As we enter and exit into these spacey melodies of power our Spirits will float on clouds of His glory. Why O why are you preventing the new movement of His grace? All that reminds me of the days when electric guitars represented the devil, a short time ago the drums where for rock stars and lights on the stag was not only a distractions in worship but a show and tell of look what we can do with technology.

The eyes are looking; His eyes are searching high and low all over the Earth for His anointed worshipers to arise as His next generation. The holy Spirit will lead these wild haired, non fearing t shirt wearing crowd to bring us corporately to new levels of the Spirit Realm no man or women has ever experienced. It’s time for the Earth to feel, see, and hear the glory of God with all His power, love, and creativity to save the souls of the damned.
To light a passionate fire so bright for advancing the Kingdom His light will be seen from the deserts of the Middle East to the rice farms that surround China.

Who is willing to press in deeper, who is fearless enough to plow this fertile ground? Who is brave enough to break a few rules @ your grandparents church in order for His Spirit to move freely throughout their dried up dull Sunday morning services? Who will answer the call, who is willing to fight the dark forces of evil? Who will produce the world beats that unites the tribes of Africa with the Pastors & Evangelists that are at this moment becoming groomed for the continent of Africa’s great awakening. Who will sacrifice their time, money, & family to train this new class of recruits and mentor them with the sword of the Spirit? Who will suffer and swallow their pride of keeping the denomination Holy substituting the promotion of the true worshipers with is Spirit and Truth?

Who, what where, when, now is the time. Forget about yesterdays songs, write, play, sing, dance, skip to the beats of His heart. There coming, coming for your money to help send them around the world helping ushering a new wave of His Spirit so big the Tsunami will look like a day at the beach. Who will fund these houses of prayers that are springing up all over the land like oil wells bubbling and runith over in Iraq & Iran? Who will run and not hide? He’s calling all those passions, desires, and undiscovered talents to be laid at the feet of His alter. All those forgotten dreams and left behind Spiritual insights aren’t just for your journey to collect dust. Learn to know when the Lord Almighty speaks He wants all mankind to listen. We need to understand that He’s moving forward with His plans for creation.

Technology is the springboard of life for the lost & those tortured confessed souls. This is the age of a little mix and match mentality, so help not hinder this new generation to get their promotions from the one who sits on the throne. Their success directly depends upon us. Don’t deny our willingness to adapt to their hidden beats that’s been stored away in the minds & souls of everyone under 30. The time is quickly approaching to store away the hymnal books in the libraries and museums. The days coming where worship of spontaneous combustion of His Spirit will erupt like a volcanoes burning down the walls & turning into ashes those standing in God’s way.

Reproduction of Imitations

How can a human being expect to re-create Supernatural experiences & events that occur in their lifetime? When this person figures out the deep thoughts & interactions with the superior creator can’t be rewind like a T.V recording with Tivo. So then what happens to the mind that wants to continue to seek greater experiences as they once where revealed? Does the mindset before that was once wasted on foreign substances & dangerous games replace those forgotten feelings with fresh Revelations? How about the heart and soul who once was so filled with secrets of destiny, can it continue to beat on and on with the same measures that once occurred during those precious intimate times?

So even when I stride for the way things use to be mentality the logic stored away inside my soul only cries out that na├»ve thinking will have to change sooner or later. Can I have your attention Reality has just entered the building, as I comprehend yesterdays replies these seem to be only memories of forgotten photographs. So then since we can’t put a price on life, health, or salvation, what price would you pay to get those forgotten days back and falling memories?

What’s the real value to see into another dimension, a mere glimpse of the future, an experience the dream that’s a lifetime dream? Time after time I‘ve seen him, her, & even myself waste a night risking brain cells & irregular heart beats to feel those man made imitations of reproductions. It’s the fun; let’s not forget the fun. Feelings of separation now divide the hearts, which where for a time & season closely knitted together, like Lavern and Shirley.

So the million-dollar question remains, what to do what to do? How can I get back to the top of the mountain again? How can I sore high above like the eagles that once circled above my atmosphere? When I look around me everything that glitters could possibly be gold, I stop and ponder where exactly am I? According to my heartache maybe there is some real substance to the old wise tale that everything under the sun is meaningless. Can’t figure out which sounds & beats I truly seek. Can’t fathom seeing pictures of myself without directions sitting with earmuffs and wearing a blindfold.

As the great Socrates once said true wisdom comes to us when we realize how little we truly understand about ourselves, daily life, & even the world around us. Maybe I thought I understood what I assumed was understandable!!